my life is a ball of yarn

Maybe I'm paranoid, but Julie seemed to be a bit taken aback/awkward when she came into MHOC and saw I was here....

But of course, the RLS type side-effects are coming back. Didn't help the power went out last night, making sleep difficult to attain/maintain. Thank God for coffee.

Apparently having an emotional relapse. Took Zoloft again last night after having another bad mommy day. Really feeling the nausea side effects today. Bleh! I think I'll take it over the emotional turmoil I had yesterday. That was not fun.

No, I'm not, but just quoting the song.

I like whiskey, and other hard liquors. Beer is nasty because it tastes watered down.

I must be Irish, but my dad doesn't like it. Interesting....................

Still need to try Charity's whiskey/cranberry juice concoction. It'd be really nice right now, even if the liquor would not help my thirst in the end. Oh well. Will's beer here is YUCKY.

The end.

...but redheads should NOT wear bright red lipstick. Certainly not.

Will finished his degree, we got a new room added onto our basement apartment (framed in a room in the unfinished part of the basement), and Zay's behaving himself a bit better.

I think I could probably stop taking the meds now, because I'm feeling pretty darn good. :) I'm already down to half a pill a day, anyways. :)

They gave me a mini-estrogen patch for a month and Zoloft for 3 months. Felt a little better with the patch by the end of that day, but I was still emotionally exhausted for the next few days. Will stayed home that weekend (celebrated his successful thesis defense), which helped a lot, and now the Zoloft's started kicking in (more than just the nauseating side effects, which have eased up). Only a month left before Will's done with school, and then I should be able to get more support (not his fault), so woohoo! I'll probably need the second month of Zoloft, just to be "safe", but hopefully I won't need my third (and final from OB) refill. The midwife wanted me to go get counseling, because "the pills aren't going to make things easier -- they'll just give you more mental energy to be able to deal with them." I know that, and that's all I really need - the mental energy. So I'm doing well, now, and then sometime mid-May I'll call or email the OB's office about if I need to wean down off of it, or if I can stop cold-turkey! :D

Going to the OB's office today in reference to postpartum depression. I broke yesterday.

I was thinking I was getting past the worst of the PPD days, but apparently I'm not, quite. Had a Bad-Momma day. Sigh. Too many of those (even one is too many, in my book.) recently. So, I really ought to go to bed since someone will be waking up around 7 in the morning. Yes, really.

Been getting migraines lately. Usually I've been able to catch them before they get too bad, but I had missed a couple - one in particular that caused slurred speech, a funny walk, and excruciating pain that didn't start until the other symptoms arrived (though it did hurt before, I could handle that pain). Since then, any time I get any bit of a headache, I have troubles with words. Either saying the wrong ones, typing the wrong ones, and/or difficulty writing/typing (fingers remembering the correct sequence of motions to write/type a word). That kind of concerns me. I'm trying a GF diet (sort of... today's kind of out the window after McD's egg n cheese biscuit for bfast and $2.99 Chicken Deluxe meal from Wendy's) and hoping it's just that and hormones from delivery, but I think if I get another stroke-like migraine like the one before then I'm calling the doctor. Ugh. I don't get along well with headaches. Back to work now.